Being... being human...and having even the semblance of awareness of the universe, the whole thing, the infinite...it just doesn't work. Its not allowed. Our bodies can't filter all that information, a dam broken through, an atomic bomb blasting through, a disintegrating visibility.
The sun is a great example of this. We all know what it looks like, a great yellow ball against a bright blue or gray, a hazy sunset with ripples of cloud penetrating through the glow. But if you stare at it, if I stare at it, it changes. It becomes a pure white, brighter than any other white you've ever seen. Keep staring and you see its shadow pushing against it. Keep staring and the inverse of the shadow, a neon sort of white, burns itself into your eyelids. Stare even further, the shadow droops, the sun itself expands and the sky around it melts. Stare more, the sun is melting down, mixing with its shadow, and reaching towards you down on the earth. A pure white flash blurs your vision; the shadow drips in. Then your eyes sink into the back of your skull and all is left is a warm, warm darkness. It drills into the far back of your head, burrowing like a giant, burning worm until it pokes out the back of your head, wiggles through your hair and plops onto the ground, writhing on the floor, shriveling into itself and back into nothing.
Am I missing something?
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