Why?
Nothing is inherently bad or good or really any other adjective in and of itself. It just is the way it is.
Usque universalis, nihilum sanctus, nihilum profanus...
Not sure if I have that quoted right, I don't know latin, just trying to remember something I've seen on a license plate frame for years now.
So things just are the way they are. Life just IS the way it is. Yes, ultimately it is all empty and meaningless...but it is empty and meaningless that it is empty and meaningless!
So why care if you feel isolated from the rest of humanity? It doesn't matter. It just is that way. No need to make up some level of personal significance to this because we all know nothing matters anyway.
Haha, of course...we all will anyway. Because we are human and its what we do. Even I do it. I'm typing in this blog right now, making up some level of personal significance about what I'm writing! Its inevitable because we are trapped in these human bodies riddled with hormones and genetic codes that urge us to do things and with these human brains that give us thoughts that tell us things mean this or that and that the world IS one way or another...when really all we see and think and feel, its just another part of the random, meaninglessness of being alive.
We aren't really all that different from the mindless animals we see around us. The biggest difference that we have is that we SEE a difference. We can "think" we are different. Whereas animals are just driven by their chemical and their genetic instincts to run around, eat, sleep, fuck, and poop, our chemicals and genetics drove us to develop a way to make shit up in order to get around certain adaptive problems we faced somewhere in our history, with the overall goal being to find better ways to eat, sleep, fuck, and poop. What we ended up doing was finding a way to feel like we are different.
Because truth is pretty much everyone you meet will tell you, "I've always felt different from the rest of people." Ever noticed that? Now how could that be true? Humans are genetically programmed to "feel different." Now that in itself implies we aren't completely different at least, and I suspect we all have much more in common than most of us readily want to admit. This is why most of my life I've tried to deny the fact that I feel different. This of course makes no difference, because innately I still feel different, and just trying to deny the fact that I feel different when no one else seems to be doing that MAKES ME FEEL DIFFERENT.
Oh, its all so meaningless and empty anyway..........
Its interesting the way this blog post has wound about sorta. It still feels really incomplete to me. Hmm...its also important to note that this whole spiel in here is just one tiny facet of everything I wonder about....one tiny part of who I am? I dunno how to say it better than that. Anyway....
Oh. So what do we do with ourselves, our inevitable human mechanisms that create meaning when there is no meaning and cause us all these "problems"?
Well, I'm not completely sure if this works for everyone, but for me, just being able to take note that nothing really matters is quite a relieving idea. And even though on a day to day basis I will continue to get sucked into all the useless interpretations of being alive that my brain creates, all the problems I make up for myself, just trying to keep the meaninglessness of it all present in my mind helps take the weight off a little bit.
OMG my car is broken down and I have no money and I need $34958366 for such and such before this deadline ahhhhh!!!! ----meaninglessnessmeaninglessnessmeaninglessnessmeaninglessness------- yes....hmm well my car is broken, I have no money,and I need such and such etc etc....mmhmm...okay..."
I guess it serves as a source of comfort, the thought of meaninglessness. It doesn't mean I'm going to just sit down and die and not do anything because its all meaningless though, thats one way to take it I suppose but why do that? All that does is make you feel crappy. And even though feelings in themselves are meaningless ultimately too...you still have to live with them!
And if there was a choice given between living a happy pointless life and living a sad pointless life...huh, I'm choosin the happy one, because its much nicer thank you very much.
And it works across the board.
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