Checked out the local farmers market today. It was pretty awesome. Pretty much everything was less than $2. That big bunch of carrots right there? $2. A basket full of sweet onions? $1! A squash thing and zuchinni? $1 for both. The most expensive thing was the POUND of walnuts for $5. Fresh from a grove about a mile from my apartment. Pretty dang sweet. I roasted some sweet baby red potatoes, carrots, and onions with rosemary tonight and tried my hand at pan grilling a chicken breast. I added a little too much seasoning salt, (which I think ill skip next time) but the chicken was cooked all the way through and I didn't burn the skin too much!
I've applied for a job that I might actually be getting. Of course I walked in and spoke with someone directly for the first time, and its the one I get in for an interview...no surprise there. Lots of paperwork and things required and I got em all in, went through probably 4 interviews with different managers in the company... I am still not sure if its a sure thing, I probably won't know until next week, but it seems like I might get it. I'd be a home care/companion for senior citizens. The job requires light housekeeping...and cooking. I think I can cook well enough, I just dont know if I can do it all on the fly with whatever ingredients the seniors might have available. Hopefully they will all want to eat hamburger helper! Haha, no I am so hard on myself. I am a much better cook than I give myself credit for. I know I am. I just wish I had the confidence.Well, we shall see what happens!!
I should really start working on my papers for school! And that thesis thing, of course. BLAH!
Good day today though, overall, I guess. Money is still ridiculous, but I am hopeful, and there have been a couple of blessings that look like theyll be keeping us afloat long enough to get to my student loan disbursement in august...
Applying for jobs is truly awful. I've revamped my resume about 4054353458 times now, but apparently I've still been doing it wrong. I'm not used to having issue with this sort of thing. Not that I've had a lot of job experience, but the ones I have had didn't involve having a perfect resume. I usually just got to the interview and BAM I had the job... stupid resumes....and stuff. I got rejected by BRU because I failed the personality test. Pretty sure thats what happened anyway. And that makes me SUPER anxious and annoyed and just devastated because I worked there, and if I recall correctly I worked VERY WELL there. Oh well... just gotta take it as what it is...an employer's market.
Perzy wants me to lie on my application to get work... I have so many qualms about doing that. I don't think I should. It feels wrong. I've decided that I really want to live an honest life, and I know that is going to be hard in this world where dishonesty and manipulation seems to get you much farther.... but I don't care. Its not about what makes life easier, its about what is right to me, and what is right in being a servant of the Lord. And I don't even want to care how crazy that last bit sounds to the non believer (as I know that it does, as theres a little doubter inside me who keeps poking me for saying it).
Anyway, done with stupid oral exam, shew! the examiners made me cry for a few hours or days after, but I think thats just because I'm supremely fragile when it comes to academic performance. Definitely something I need to work on intensely. A couple more papers to write before the 1st, hopefulyl won't be too stressful....
And then my thesis. Which is UGH! Dont want to write! I've had to write hundreds of pages by now and another 60+ for one topic doesn't sound fun to write, even if it is an intriguing topic... I think I'm just tired. But then what else am I even good at? Apparently nothing, as no one wants to hire me. HAH! Yeah, who knows, this job stuff is dumb. ARRRGHH
I'm selling books on amazon now too. Woohoo first sale today! We shall see how it goes. not a huge moneymaker though either way, but every bit helps.
It looks like we are gonna stick it out in the apt we are in currently, we had thought we were going to be moving out, but I guess not for the time being. I'm really worried about money, of which we have very little, and by the time next month comes around, we will have even less than very little, more like next to nothing, or rather...pretty much nothing.
I'm determined though. I hope that my determination is enough.
Great band this, just discovered it through an old radio station connection, of course. Good times, I miss that. I miss my ratties a lot too. I miss animals! We go on walks and pet all the neighborhood kitties that will approach us. I stole one away for a little once and brought it inside our apartment even, haha.
Money issues like crazy. We have a deadline. If I can't find work in the next couple of weeks, no later than the end of June, we have to move back down. Probably to the SB area to live with his mom and sister and brother again, which would be a...crazy endeavor.
And oral exams are happening June 15th! And I have a paper due right at that time too!
I chickened out on getting antidepressants... Sigh....I still wonder though, should I? My insurance runs out in August though, doesn't seem smart to get hooked on something with that kinda deadline approaching.
I'm not gonna let this money stuff get me down. I'm determined. Just gotta keep my eyes and my heart and my mind focused on what really matters....loving God. :)
