Crazed and cradling pools to bathe in

Fire

Moments so immersive it feels like ill lose it all in an endless sea of intellectualism and philosophical exploration....

The pounding sound of death leaves me feeling so short of breath, like I'm drifting away unwillingly across the dark puddle of my mortality as my mind enters realms I was never meant to find...

To feel so awake and raw, so alive and yet acknowledging the rotting meat and blood and sinew shrieking and squelching in between soul and world.  

I am a fire at my core, burning brightly. 

The sun heats me; and I soak it in like 

A hearty flower 

dipped in a river of diamonds

I take this fire and I share it in small ways 

Flaming tendrils lapping against faces

Embracing mountains and infants

Snaking into the dark nooks and crannies 

Far below the shaley topsoil of my consciousness.

Dearest Lord, Creator, Father. My beloved... Jesus, my Savior. It is Your Glory shining down upon me that allows even the very sensation of Goodness and Joy to be experienced. Without Your Infinite, beautiful design nothing would exist, not even the merest whim or speck of dust. No souls, no time, no earth, air; no galaxies or black holes, concepts or impulses, connections, or species. 

Any perception given to me is only possible through You, for You are responsible for the existence of eery thought and feeling I have ever had. 

Everything I have or think i have, and everything anyone else has or thinks they have, is really Yours. To deny this is to claim ownership of something that was never something that could ever be owned. How can a tiny glimmer of light crafted so meticulously by a force so beyond powerful ever hope to claim anything? How can it do anything but what it was designed to do? 

Lord let me live as You have designed me to live, not as a deviant but so consumed with the fire of Your Perfection  that I cannot do anything aside from that which aligns itself with Your Glory. It is not simply love, it is Your Perfect Love that renews and  restores us, purifies us from the cancerous darkness that separates a sinful creature from the Light.