Go o,o,o,o,o,o,o,o,o,o

EQ

At times....too many times...I get caught up in this strange idea that I am some kind of crazy special positive force upon the world. I am assuming that I am not the only one who does this, even though I also often get caught up in this sort of idea too, at times.

It does seem a lot as though I am the only one alive. Or not so much alive in and of itself, but the kind of alive I am. Me me me!

But the real depth, the real aliveness, is still so far out of my grasp. I know that now, because my aliveness, my uniqueness or whatever is really none of those things. It is just another superficial sort of facade that feels real because its the only thing I've ever known.

The truth is outside of our understanding of reality. It is outside of our personal, emotional experiences and perceptions. 

But for anyone seeking real truth, real depth, real meaning, it is the only thing that will cut it.How hard it is to extend oneself outside their own personal bubble of reality to feel the shocking, alien truth outside all human experience. How often are we like frightened children hiding under the covers to escape our fearful perception of the unknown?

And how often do we let our fearfulness lead to the silly misconception that we alone are what is real, living, and special....under our covers...

Rhodi odi oh LAAAAAA

This stuff is amazing. I really hope it's not a placebo effect. Immediate release of about 80% of my stress, better sleep, increased energy, elevated mood, higher focus, and a decrease in belly bloat and other stress-triggered stomach problems to boot!! 

And this is in 3 days. I can't believe it. Oh you delicious Siberian herb, you. Don't ever stop your magic!

jello-flies?

I can feel the raw chia seeds I just consumed stuck in my throat and in my gums, jellifying. I surely hope they are really chia seeds and not insect eggs. At this point it is impossible to tell the difference.